I’ve re-written this two or three times now. This is not the same post it was originally; this is not the same post it was two months ago.
Taking the winter off was not ideal for Confetti. It wasn’t ideal for me, either.
I was at a fairly good weight, for me, when I started with Fetti in 2010. I was riding 5-7 days a week and hiking across campus. Things went downhill a bit when I graduated, started at a desk job, and dropped to riding only 4 days a week. I promised myself that I’d lose at least a good chunk of that weight before asking my pony to do a 50. It’s enough of an uphill battle to manage her without asking her to carry an extra 20+ pounds!
Tan breeches aren’t kind, but I think it’s pretty accurate. Also, I still regret having to sell that bridle, but it really did not fit. The new one just isn’t quite as awesome without all the sparkles. I need to sparkle-ify and find some pink hearts to glue on the halter the next time I’m feeling crafty.
The weight came off once I got serious about it. I tracked calories and watched what I ate. No fitness/workout plans, no meal shakes, no hitting the gym. I took up running a few times, and quit running a few times. For me, for where I was and the weight I had gained, I just needed to eat less.
Slightly kinder angle, but still 20+ pounds lighter in September 2015.
But unlike the first time I wrote this, it doesn’t end there.
I am painfully out of shape right now. Taking the winter off of conditioning was not really a choice. I’ve been battling headaches and migraines almost non-stop since at least late December. My fitness has suffered. My mental health has suffered. My blogging has suffered. I just run out of spoons and can’t get it all done.
It used to be that on an average Tuesday, I could get up a bit early and get some stuff done at home, run an errand or two before work, put in my half-day at work feeling pretty productive, knock out at least half a blog post (sometimes a whole blog post!), head to the barn for a brisk 4-6 mile ride, maybe trim a hoof or two (or deal with her bale bag), clean the stall, finish brushing off the pony again, make dinner at home while reading blogs & commenting, and have an hour or so to de-stress before needing to head to sleep.
To be fair, I’m always out later with the light lasting longer in the summer, but that’s not nearly my average Tuesday now: get up just-on-time, run an errand before work if traffic is kind, put in my half-day at work feeling like I’m running terribly behind and super slow, head to the barn (now running late and hitting traffic) for a round pen session or hopefully 3-4 mile ride, refill bale bag when I have to, clean the stall, treat hooves for thrush, hope my boyfriend has dinner already at home, sleep. It doesn’t sound like a big difference, but the reality is several hours of difference and less getting done in that added time.
I’m running at maybe 60% of my normal with a headache, and 40% when the migraines hit, and I’ve been at this for four months. It’s a struggle to get my fitness back up to par when I never know how many spoons I’ll have on any given day. I feel like I’m barely making do with the spoons I have.
Today was a good day. I have no idea what tomorrow will look like.
How do the rest of you do it? Any tips for better spoon management?